Hey all!
Wow i havnt written in sooo long. i am sorry for that. but life has been well...pretty crazy. In the last week, alot has happened in my life. In the moment it seemed like the end of the world...but now i feel so much better. Its taking time to forgive myself and move on from, but all in all i feel soooo much better with how i am living than how i was before. I have really seen how much God loves me in the last week. It amazes me that even after some of the things i have gone through and done, he still loves me, forgives me and leads me through the though times to better ones. He has blessed me soo much this week, and just in life in general. i think i have always been blessed i just never took the time out to see it until this week. I have the best family in the world, i have the most loving and forgiving friends ever, and i have a God who's always loved me, and will always love me. I cant find words to describe how good all that makes me feel. I have been walking through life...for me, for what i get out of it..looking for things in all the wrong places and this week it all hit me like a brick wall. Life isnt what you get out of it..its what you put into it that gets you through. When you put your trust in God, he guides you...when you put all of you..the real you into your relationships they grow bigger and better than you ever imagined. This is all stuff i have learned, that sometimes you may feel invisible, or like no cares..but the truth is..that truth, love and trust in God gets you through anything. I am actually looking forward to life now....to learning and growing and maturing. But i want to do none of that without God. I have seen how i am and who i am without him and i hate that part of me, I know God is there with his arms open wide, i have stepped into his arms and i am not leaving. From here on out everything in my life is for him...trhough him..and to him. God has taken my heart, and washed away all the lies all the hurt all the doubt and has replaced it with a fire that burns for him and him alone.
all my love
-abbey<3

Hey everyone.
Well i think i actually have the time to write this lol that's a first. Umm nothing really happening iin my day...pretty boring stuff really...church...which was awesome as usual i was in nurserey today again so i had some laughs while taking care of the kids it was cute. then after church i drove to st. catherines with my family for a family reunion. i was bored stiff lol like i love my family and all but really....i didnt know like any of them lol. but oh well we had a funny drive home crammed in our car so over all it wasnt soo bad lol. School starts again tomorrow ..ewww lol like i love school sooo much but i would like it if i didnt have to do soo much work lol. But i guess it wouldnt be school if i didnt so ...why complain really? lol So ya i am looking forward to me day tomorrow in some ways lol. This weekend has been a confusing one lol you gotta love working problems out with your friends..i mean they all end up being wayyy bigger than they have to be lol. But w/e i think everything has been worked out now so all the confusion has ended for the time being. Talked also to my lvoely sister jade on msn twice this weekend which was lovely. i miss her lots but she was telling me what a great time she was having so i dont want her to come home. God is doing such great things in her life that i want her to take in every minute of it! lol anyways wow i have to go
much love
-abbey<3

Hey there!
Well i am sorry i have missed the last couple days but i just couldnt find the time. i am officially saying that this blog is going to be one of..whenever i can get to it. Trust me i would much rather spend my time writting this blog than doing homework..but never the less my homework must come first. But anyways...ya so yesterday was friday i have officially survived my third week of school..barely though! I dont know..the school aspect of this week was pretty general ...nothing too horrible..but i dont know..it seemd like every other problem that could have arised did. lol it was just a little..more like alot overwhelming. I think its all over with now but lets just say it was a night of tears last night. I dont even know what was bothering me fully...i mean there is a few things and problems that i can think of..but over all they shouldnt have bothered me as much as they did. I dont know i think it was just everything put together that i couldnt take. But i had a good nights sleep..sort of..lol and i think today should be better. I will keep you posted for sure! lol anyways i have to be going just wanted to post something and not miss another day.
much love
-abbey<3

Hello everyone.
Well today was....hmmm interesting...lets start with alst night. Went to bed and actually fell asleep right away for the first time in week last night...only for my alarm to go off two hours later for no reason. So that was about 2:00 am. then of coarse i cant fall asleep. So by this time i have turned me alarm off....and i am up wide awake...so i decide to write a little..read a little...nothing makes me want to fall asleep...so i lay awake thinking over quiet a day. Then because i turned off my alarm and didnt just reset it....i ended up sleeping in..so i ran around like a chiken with my head cut off trying to get ready on time. So i finally stumble out of the door and get to school....school was good. Classes were normal actually enjoyed gym for once. So then came lunch.....wasnt really hungry but i figured i should eat something so that i dont end up being starved half way through third period....so i force myself to eat....bad idea. After lunch i felt the worst i have felt in my entire life. Dont know what it was..maybe a ciombination of advil...forcing myself to eat and the fact that i wasnt feeling all together to well before that. But i was dizzy..my head was pounding...my stomach hurt...it was just bad. So i go to art...hoping to listen to music do my work and forget about how bad i feel...nope..that doesnt happen i end up going to the bathroom..puking up what i had just ate and not really finding the relief i was hoping for. lol So i was pretty sick all day today so that wasnt nice at all. So its kinda been acrumy day for me..but i am feeling somewhat better now..so i hope tomorrow goes a little better lol. So ya that was my day....hoepfully i will never have to repeat it lol! Gotta love it lol
-abbey<3

Heyy all!
Well today was pretty busy. It all had to do with church though lol. Lets starts at the begining shall we? lol So last night i had larissa and grace over to watch a movie that was soooo much fun most fun i have had since school started. So they showed up....then we hung out at my house for a bit..then we decided to walk to the corner store to buy pop and chips and what not. So we go ..get our junk...then we decided to go to the park....all the while debating on whether to go visit my friend kyle. lol We didnt end up going to him house...lol but we did end up at the park. So we get to the park and there are these like five little girls...playing on the swings so we go sit down by the swing adn eat some junk food lol. And while we sitting there these girls were like..whats your name(to grace)and grace is like my name is Thomas lol. and they actually belived her they called ehr thomas for the rest of the time we were at the park..and grace was being the monkey she is and like climbing the swing set and they were like wow look at what thomas is doing! haha it was soo hilarious me and larissa were killing ourselves laughing. So that was funny..then we are walking back tom y place from the park and we see this really really really long drive way thing and larissa is like wow wonder whats up there? so you know me..i was like well lets go see...so we cross the street and me and grace are like half way up the drive way and larissa is standing at the bottum and she's like..guys i dont want to..lol so we are like..fine stay BY YOURSELF and the bottum of the freaky drive way lol. And she did so while we were walking up there we are plotting to like scare her. So we get to the top where she cant see us anymore and we scream at the top of our lung and run down the drive way..and larissa was like..what what? lol it was funny. so needless to sa ywe got her..and then we walked hom to my house watched a movie..had some laughs it was good. then when the movie was over we went out on my deck and talked until like ten when they had to leave. So my sis drove them home ..i had to stay home cause my brother was in bed..so i sat out on my deck til like 11:00 writting and thinking and stuff..then it was up to my room to sleep! so ya it was a fun filled night. tehn today was church....then after church was this meeting thing that i had to babysit for so that wa sthat..then it was setting up sound equipement for the church that rents out our building till like 4:00 lol so i just got home about a half hour ago and left by eightthis morning. lol so its been a great couple days...best weekend in a while i loved it!! lol gotta fly
much love
abbey<3

Hey everyone.
Ok well not much to report from the everyday stuff. Last nigth i went to youth...my youth pastor matt was away so my dad spoke at youth...the talk was very good..really interesting stuff i have never though about before i really like it..got my mind opened it was very nice. My friend came out too...he seemed to enjoy it so i was happy...its always nice to just hang out with him too so that was a plus. So ya my night was overall pretty good. After youth came home..tried to sleep...but couldnt so i had alot of time to think about things. As tired as i was i couldnt seem to shut off my brain. I was thinking about why things happen. Most people who know me ..know that i am a christian and that i believe that God works everything out and gives us things n our lives for a reason. But i was think about you know..when things happen....and you think its so great and your all excited and then you hear about what happened after you werent around and it kind of defeats the entire purpose. Or when you really want something...and you are so close to having it come true and then just like that you loose it. And all the same i know i should trust in God...and believe me i do....i guess i am just overthinking it....it all comes down to if it is in the plan for me it will happen..i have this need to take things into my own hands even when i shouldnt. It makes me mad sometimes cause i know that God loves me and will work everything out..but i still cant seem to let things go. The more i want to the harder it is. But in the end i guess thats what i have to make myself do. And dont get me wrong...i lovee God and i trust him...i guess its just me being human and wanting to make things happen. So last night overall i decided that no matter the outcome of the problems i have been faced with that he has his hand all mixed in there and he knows the outcome...and he will provide for me what i need. So i am working on letting everything go...but it is a thing i will have to keep working on. Because bove all else...if everything else in my world fell apart...i know God would be there to help me...and that what i have to keep telling myself. so on a lighter note....school is going really well i am really enjoying myself. I do really miss some people though...but over all i really like it. So ya life is pretty good at the moment cant complain...given all my problem needs and wishes to GOd and i know he'll work things out for the best. So i am pretty good at the moment!!
-abbey<3

Hey everyone
Well orginally i just amde this blog to be able to contact my lovely sister in africa. lol But i figured if i have it why not use it. So i dont know how much i will write..nor do i know what i will right about but we shall see i guess lol. So well as most of you know i just started high school....i have surrvived my second week and am looking forward to the rest of the year. Life is pretty good. Cant complain too much....missing my sister. For all of you who dont know she is off in Africa doing ehr first year of Bible College. i love her to pieces and she is going to make such a difference..but i still really miss her. So ya thats my complaint for the day lol. Well this isnt a long one..there will be more to come. but for now this is it!
lots of love
-abbey<3