Hey everyone.
Ok well not much to report from the everyday stuff. Last nigth i went to youth...my youth pastor matt was away so my dad spoke at youth...the talk was very good..really interesting stuff i have never though about before i really like it..got my mind opened it was very nice. My friend came out too...he seemed to enjoy it so i was happy...its always nice to just hang out with him too so that was a plus. So ya my night was overall pretty good. After youth came home..tried to sleep...but couldnt so i had alot of time to think about things. As tired as i was i couldnt seem to shut off my brain. I was thinking about why things happen. Most people who know me ..know that i am a christian and that i believe that God works everything out and gives us things n our lives for a reason. But i was think about you know..when things happen....and you think its so great and your all excited and then you hear about what happened after you werent around and it kind of defeats the entire purpose. Or when you really want something...and you are so close to having it come true and then just like that you loose it. And all the same i know i should trust in God...and believe me i do....i guess i am just overthinking it....it all comes down to if it is in the plan for me it will happen..i have this need to take things into my own hands even when i shouldnt. It makes me mad sometimes cause i know that God loves me and will work everything out..but i still cant seem to let things go. The more i want to the harder it is. But in the end i guess thats what i have to make myself do. And dont get me wrong...i lovee God and i trust him...i guess its just me being human and wanting to make things happen. So last night overall i decided that no matter the outcome of the problems i have been faced with that he has his hand all mixed in there and he knows the outcome...and he will provide for me what i need. So i am working on letting everything go...but it is a thing i will have to keep working on. Because bove all else...if everything else in my world fell apart...i know God would be there to help me...and that what i have to keep telling myself. so on a lighter note....school is going really well i am really enjoying myself. I do really miss some people though...but over all i really like it. So ya life is pretty good at the moment cant complain...given all my problem needs and wishes to GOd and i know he'll work things out for the best. So i am pretty good at the moment!!
-abbey<3